It is an interesting conundrum Theoretical. In another post you mentioned having to move every couple of years when people start to wonder. I suppose I worry for you that sharing your lack of feeling with a friend may trigger situations leading to a need for another move. Idk. Though I also understand your desire to open up and just be entirely yourself with someone. I don't really know what to recommend here honestly but I'm happy to read your thoughts. I suppose a question I have is what would be the goal....if you tell someone how you really feel/don't feel...what's your objective? To feel truly known? Something else?

I worry for you but perhaps I'm just being an ol' mother hen?? Cluck! Cluck!