Just a panicky post from me..

I have therapy (psychodynamic) in just over an hour and I have nothing to say

I always tend to start the session, with ‘I don’t have anything today.’ This time I really do have nothing

She’s not the type of therapist who will initiate things if I have nothing. It is ok for her that we sit in silence and let’s me know that, but understands it’s not ok for me.

It’s not that I don’t want to go to session because of this: quite the opposite infact.

But I always feel so desperate to break a silence. Or I’m mad at myself that I can’t ‘do therapy,’ or that I have this opportunity to work things out with an amazingly insightful therapist, but that can only happen if I come with the things.

I’m attached. I can’t quit therapy. But I need to have something to say otherwise something bad will happen.

Any advice? I just feel like a defected human