Half of today’s session was taken up by forward planning, but R and I had a productive conversation over safety. The sense of safety I feel at work magnifies the sense of unsafety I feel in other aspects of my life.
‘When somebody asks who I am …’ I began to laugh helplessly.
‘It’s so good to hear you laugh!’
‘When somebody asks how I am, I say “Work’s good”.’
We talked about my desire to create more spaces where I feel safe. I showed her the mind map I had drawn briefly. We agreed that we will talk more about that next session. I said that I believe that safety should be intrinsic, but I feel as though it isn’t for me since about three years ago.
‘When you experience something which affects you so deeply, it makes sense that you would struggle to feel safe.’