You are very worthy and lovable. Age 26 is not uncommon to have only had short-term relationships and have not yet met ‘the one’. I met my h at 26. I was ready to meet someone nice, stable, and didn’t play games with commitment. And there he was! Lol.

It sounds like your friend just wasn’t the right sexual orientation for you. The fantasies with unrequited love obsessions are maybe a coping mechanism as they are safe because they are unavailable.

If you want a committed relationship, and you find the right one, you will have it. Keep your mind and heart open. Don’t waste your heart on unavailable ones. You have much to offer and someone who is available will see that in due time.