I have not felt this way precisely. But I have sometimes realized I am trying to provoke the therapist into confirming to me that she is not to be trusted. Which, maybe she isn't, but it's not very objective proof that she's untrustworthy if I say, toilet-paper her office and then expect her to not be angry.

I have also accused her of hating me. In my case, it was not something I was actually worrying about, but rather a means to distract from something else that I didn't want to talk about.

I don't think I've ever done anything to make her hate me. The worst thing I've ever done to her personally was give her a nasty look. That's hardly worth hating somebody over. I've done plenty of other stuff, said I would never speak to her again, etc., but that was the only genuinely mean thing I've ever done.