NERIZ:

Because you're feeling so bad, it might be a good idea to ask for some medication that will help you feel better right away. If they tell you that you have to wait six weeks for that kind of medication to work, well --- that's not so. There are old style medications that will help you right away. You can use a little of them along with the slower acting ones, so that you will always be feeling better.

Keep asking your doctor for that kind of help, because it IS available. And maybe you need something for anxiety also. Anyway, you need to discuss your feelings with a doctor, so that he/she can give you exactly what you need.

Forget the guilt. We've experienced severe depression ourselves. We understand. The important thing is to keep yourself safe. And to take good care of doggie also.

Please be kind to yourself and take this important first step. Make an appointment to see the doctor and tell him/her about your depression.

Love,
Adieu