I'm so done. Done with everything. My life is a complete waste, I feel sorry for my parents, especially my Dad who thinks I'm doing my best at everything. But I'm not even trying. And I can't seem to change myself. You know what's the absolute worst combination to have? ADHD and depression. But to make things even worse, social anxiety also.

Your ADHD makes you want to do all kinds of things at once. But guess what, depression is saying no to all of that. Even if you somehow managed to outplay it, social anxiety is there to hold you back from doing anything.

So what am I doing all day then? Well I play the same videogame every day, go to the supermarket, spend the money I haven't earned on the same things over and over, watch YouTube gameplays of the same game I'm playing and finally go to sleep (exhausted) at 3 am. And no, I'm not going to the gym I've signed up and pay 20$ per month for. I rather spend money on Fast-Food and food delivery.

I don't have any close friends to hang out with, only people I know from school. But they don't care about me at all. I have difficulties making new friends, I have crooked teeth so I've already forgot how to laugh and people find me awkward and weird.

What else to say... I'm most likely failing class and even school since I never study and don't really see a point in studying a subject I'm probably 2 years behind (math).

Yes, I don't care about anything anymore. I just can't change myself. I'm feeling numb and don't even bother thinking about killing myself. I gave up.