I don't understand why I have to go through this addiction stuff. Or why I have to deal with the TV on most of the day. I want it off. Then maybe I can study.

I am going for 24 hours clean time, that's all I can do. I'm just going to think of it that way. I don't want to let people down in the future. I want to be strong for my future clients. I'm so emotional now, it's unbearable.