I am going through an episode of overwhelming anxiety right now. I just cut a whole bunch of times and it was so weird, I didn't feel a thing. I didn't even help. I don't wanna tell my husband, I can't call T, maybe I will go call my friend, he is someone I can talk to about this, but I feel so stupid and ashamed. I'm scared. All I want to do is go back to the razor blade and keep going until I feel something. It was like I was in a daze, it was so surreal, I couldn't feel anything. I feel the afterwards sting now, but that's it.