I think a lot of members can relate to that UrOther. When I joined this site I was struggling so badly with PTSD and when I wrote posts it actually took a lot of effort for me to do so. I was struggling to function IRL badly and I could not understand why either. Writing something was a lot of effort, I was stuck in hyper vigilance and struggled with racing thoughts. It definitely showed in my writing with missing words (I had to reread everything I wrote and find the missing words before I could finally post anything)and I was repeating things not even realizing it (Often did not always notice that right away either). It was often harder interacting with someone in person too, I could not articulate all that I was experiencing and I was so sensitive which is not like me.

When the body is stuck in anticipation of being attacked, it's extremely hard for the frontal lobe and executive part of the brain to function normally. PTSD is an anxiety disorder but it's way worse than anxiety. Some people experience PTSD worse than others too.

I think what you need most right now is to be able to compose and have that respected. It's extremely hard to explain that to others so it's good that you found a way to do that.