My t seems totally different. I just can't stop pushing people away. I have NO hope and I want to have no hope. I don't want to wish for a better future only to never get it. I t has to be me, I am the common denominator that makes relationships go sour. OR makes people hate me. This time, I am devastated, my T is acting different. I don't know if I just need to leave everyone alone. Maybe I deserve this, maybe I don't. I think everybody should leave me along so they don't get the negative curse I have on me. . .