Some cannot appreciate just how bad this can be. A child can be discouraged from trying to vocalize even before they can vocalize too. A crying child can end up being yelled at for just crying because they are hungry, gassy, wet and cold or experiencing pain from a tooth coming in. A child can face constant messages like "don't you dare say anything, you better shut up, you have to be quiet, don't you dare talk back, don't bother me now, stop your whining, just do as I say and don't talk back, I don't want to hear it go back to bed", and I am sure there are more one can add. If a child is not given any time to sit and talk with a parent or adult, that child can build up a lot of stress and frustrations. That can result in that child growing into an individual who has a very hard time communicating in a normal relaxed state.

I was trying to explain to my therapist recently how it was hard for me to pick an event in that often what happens is because there has been so many events I get flashes much like you describe. However, from what you have shared you were facing constant traumas and mistreatements. So you had to survive your environment in a very different way than many who may not be able to relate or know how to affectively support you the way you would like them to.