Hello JustMe: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central. One forum in particular, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the relationships forum. Here's a link just in case you haven't already found it:

https://psychcentralforums.com/relat...communication/

You may also want to check out the survivors of abuse forum:

https://psychcentralforums.com/survivors-of-abuse/

There is such a thing as "imposter syndrome". I don't know if this is the sort of thing you're experiencing. However here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject plus a link to an article on coping with sexual abuse. This article, by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D., also provides links to additional articles on the subject:

Do You Feel Like An Impostor? You're Not Alone!

Do You Feel Like a Fake?

When You Feel Like an Impostor, a Fake or a Fraud

https://psychcentral.com/sexual-abuse/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.