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As far as envy goes I think its what I like to call a "useless emotion"(included in that is also jealousy and shame). IMO envy stems from what is lacking in your life and I do not mean material things or relationships but at the fundamental core of who you are- something is lacking. Very often the stems from the way we were raised. I do not know what your homelife is like but very often if you look there you will have some clues. Envy is a poison feeling for your soul. If causes you to look outward and hyperfocus on what others have and then compare that to yourself. If you do not like yourself or appreciate what you have then you will not be able to stop being envious. I know when I have felt this way in the past (before I got sober) the one way I could pull myself out of it was doing nice things for others and volunteering. I use AA for my sobriety so my way of keeping myself in check is to lead meetings in the womens prison. Those girls need all the support they have and to know they are not forgotten. The soup kitchen in my county rotates from church to church to serve dinners so when they are in my town I try and go down there and serve the dinners and talk to people. Dignity is something people often lose when they have lost everything and helping them get a little back is worth my time. People are looking for volunteers for everything- animals, homeless, habitat for humanity, disabled meals on wheels etc. I promise you that if you volunteer and help others you will not feel this way.
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