I'm dreading my private French lesson this afternoon. I use the word "dread" without exaggeration. My husband and therapist know I want to quit. Like so many things, I'd be more than willing to lose the money I pre-paid. I never should have pre-paid, anyway. I should have paid each time with cash.

I am trying to decide what I'm going to say to the French teacher. He already knows that I have some psych issues. Hubby and my therapist have given me advice. They want me to see this out. I told hubby I think I would do better in the group class that starts in September. He disagrees.

This may seem strange, but I think I will tell the teacher that instead of homework to study new content ahead of time, to then go over in the next class, I want no official homework. Instead, I will review new grammar/words we already discussed in class, or that I look up myself. Oddly, this would be an approach that I'd be much more willing to take. Even maybe excited about. This is very difficult to explain to anyone, let alone in a non-native language. Such odd requests do perplex people. I hope this will help me with this matter.

I have grown very odd in the last 13+ years. I know. I am conscious of that fact. I was never really "the norm", but that wasn't always a bad thing.