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Originally Posted by raging vortex
thank you for posting this.
I honestly don't know where I stand on this
on one hand, I am a strong believer of the fact that each of us can do with our bodies what we like (its our boddies, we have to face the conciquences) and self harm is a coping method like anything else
a lot of people will turn to you and say well.. drinking is bad, drugs are bad, self harm is bad, but the point is it helps people- and that's why they do what ever it is to cope.
on the other hand, these things are an addiction
you can't just self harm once and then stop, because you crave it in future. you mention in your post that you wish they would be happy you chose self harm over suicide, well: self harm can lead to suicide (and other infections)
it's a slow suicide because it just goes on, and on, and on, until one day it goes too far
no one wants to see you hurt yourself
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You're on a wrong logic path. You say that self harm leads to suicide, because you've heard about people who used to self-harm at first, and commit suicide then. But I'll tell you that the reason of the suicide is not a self-harm, it's
pain and
depression. You consider suicide as the last option to end your pain. And, if self-harm reliefs the pain, therefore it makes you live longer, as long as there's another option to end your pain, despite it's a temporary solution.
Believe me, no one truly wants to die. I want to die in my overwhelming painful depressive episodes, and I tried 3 times to do this. But I don't want to end my life, no. I want to live a happy, painless life. But there's so much pain, that I forget about all the good things I experience in my normal days, and these times, the intention to end the pain fights with the fear of death, or fear of worse pain while being in agony of dying.
I know that someday fear of death will loose this battle, and I'll do this. But I'm still alive, and, partially, thankfully to self-harm.