Thank you @Riseupfromtheruins. I needed to see this. Some of the negative experiences I have faced in recent times have made my heart ever so hardened. This post has helped me to reconnect with others and my inner soul because I've often had to fall apart so someone can take care of me in thoughts of being unlovable. Now I recognize these thoughts aren't just a pity party but also a defense mechanism. But how to find proof that I am worthy of love and respect?