I have authority issues. As if they are my toxic abusive parent and may shame me if I fail on the job. Now that I have significant stress recent history and lifting,/arm use issues, I have fear I won't even be able to do a normal day job. I know I need counseling. But I know bosses expect perfection, and I am now 46, and just cannot "do anything" or act like a super hero to be good enough on the job. Do I have given up trying to get one and am trying to get SSI.