Today has been a boring day.

i got to sleep until 12pm and i was glad about it. the less i am conscious the better i feel. i hate living through life consciously. with all the thoughts and feelings stressing me out.

then spent the rest of the day watching tv series, cuddling with my cats and eating (i hate that i gave in and got some nutella). i also spent some time with my mom but all in all today was just boring. not really relaxing because i still feel upset and agitated inside. not sure why. im just trying to keep everything under control and even though it helps on one side, on the other its just stressing.

i worte that letter for my pdoc, write a few stuff for my exT and the next session and fixed a schedule for next week and updated most of my files…. now im going to have dinner and then sleep again. i wish i could sleep forever.