Is the hypnotherapy working out for you, ruby2011? I'm so sorry you have to deal with ALL of this! Keep working on yourself as much as you possibly can. Are your colleagues aware of your struggles? Either way, I hope things will get better soon for you one way or another. Please keep working on yourself with your therapist. I'm glad that you're taking some Meds as well. Are they helping? I certainly hope. Please keep us update don your situation if you can and want to. I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, ruby2011!