I wrote another thread on the topic in the abuse forum. This is copied from my post there:

I get very deeply upset by injustices. And I hold onto an injustice far longer than I should in the eyes of society.

That relationship, he, was unjust towards me.

What gets me the most is in the surface he seems like a very caring, decent and wonderful person. But he’s not. He’s a total con artist and a pathological liar underneath that facade.

Then to learn that while I was stressing about financially supporting both of us that he was secretly buying and using drugs (on MY credit card) while I needed him to get a job ASAP? Then to later tell me that he loved his other ex more????

Yes two years later and I am still beside myself over his behavior. Maybe I’m nowhere near forgiveness.