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Jun 23, 2019, 04:51 PM
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Maybe just a guess here. Maybe the one you need to forgive is yourself for letting him treat you that way? Maybe I'm misreading, but I get this tone from your posts here that you're mad at yourself for helping him. And mad at yourself for being fooled by him. Maybe start by forgiving yourself?
I could be way off but I have this little hunch bc you and I are very similar in many ways.
Also...(¹) you dont have to forgive a monster and (²) monsters behave like monsters because they are monsters. It's just their nature. You cant blame them for their nature. You just make sure to stay away once you learn there's a monster there.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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