Not exactly the way that I look, but the way that people perceive me if that makes any sense at all. During the 15 months that I was in the abusive situation I was in there wasn't a day that went by that I wasn't called many degrading names and put down horribly and said I wouldn't amount to anything and would probably end up being killed once I reached a certain age and was used up, Those sort of words still ring in my head every single day and those are the things I deal with and not that I think my face might be ugly or I am too short or my ears are too big. It is those horrible words that I can't get out of my head.