I do the same thing. My T has said that he thinks that I think I’m “too much” for him. He may be right and the reason may be that if I feel like I want (need?) something from him, he’ll be overwhelmed or frustrated. My solution is to contemplate not showing up just about every week so that that doesn’t happen. I rarely skip, but I do agonize about it on a regular basis. And I sometimes play out a scene in my head where he agrees that we’re not a good fit and that we should stop working together.