I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Humpty Dumpty I'm sure it must be painful to live like this. Perhaps you just need to make the part that wants to live stronger. You have plenty of qualities and I'm so sorry that you can't see them right now. The fact that your wife loves you means that there ARE many things about you that can be appreciated. I'm not sure how your relationship with your parents is but hopefully they appreciate many things about you as well. Of course love from other people can only go so far when that Love doesn't come from within ourselves I hope you'll be able to receive help since you DO deserve to get better and to feel good AT LEAST as much as everyone else if not more! .throb: You're a WONDERFUL person, Humpty Dumpty. I hope one day you will be able to see that. Try to keep fighting in the meantime. It is hard but you're doing it, Humpty Dumpty. That is something to be proud of! Of course we'll be here for you when you need support. You can ALWAYS count on us, Humpty Dumpty! THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Humpty Dumpty, and to ALL of the people who you love and who love you!