Worth living? I mean, did you choose to be alive? Do you have to choose to wake up in the morning? You make it sound like you have to constantly decide to keep living, as if you don't keep actively making that decision you will suddenly disappear.

Life just happens, right? Even if you didn't pressure yourself so much, life would force you to do something anyway. Maybe you are in your head too much and not enough in your natural feelings and instincts.