I can relate, MelodicMelody! I'm always afraid I'm going to be judged for my thoughts as well! I completely agree with what Raindropvampire has already wisely said better than I ever could. As long as you don't tell her about any thoughts that may be actually dangerous for yourself or for others she should accept you for who you are. She's there to help you after all. I'm sure she's heard many dark thoughts over her years of experience. Just be honest with her and I'm SURE you'll be able to work things through in the best way possible for BOTH of you! Keep us updated on your situation and let us know how things turns out for you if you can and want to. We ALL do care about you. THAT'S A PROMISE! Please stay safe and take GREAT care of yourself. Wish you the BEST of luck in BOTH your healing and your life. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you and ALL the people you love and who love you!