Thank you all.

the song's lyric hit home. and it almost made me cry. ina good way. thank you for it.

im at lunch break. i gave in and drank some vodka. today is really hard. i texted my T. she answered back but it was too late to stop me. now im listening to some songs and im on the verge of crying but i have to go back to work in a few mins. i need to get the control back and try and do my best. baby steps. but im SO tired.

im also going to call my pdoc to ask her to fix the meds problem. i hope she'll answer and she'll fix it.

more tonight… i just had to "talk" with "someone"...