Thanks for responding. You folks are my best support anywhere. No surprise, you get it.
I dont go full blown manic but climb up to the point where I may be working against myself. Very hard to slow down., hard to rest, and i verbally eviscerate those who try to play intimidation games with me, rather than sloughing it off. If I unload on my daughter in law in San Diego who is really trying to block me from grandkids and son, I will pay a high price. I was an elem teacher for the exact age of my grandsons. I get a strong take on them. The younger one is a lot like ME, so I totally get him. I cant unload on her like she is goading me to. Same with all relationships. I have to learn to set boundaries then be prepared to seek out new people and situations where the negatives dont occur so often. I cant use my energy counterproductively. I have to avoid people with the aggressive facebook quantity rather than quality approach to life. Avoid that route to burnout. Someone on the forum suggested a private pdoc who may be the best person for me. Made a solid list to sequence and prioritize things. Unloaded some audiobooks to help me relax. I even found a bipartisan citizens action committee which promotes consensus building instead of the cult of personality and fake news that has taken over politics. Ill try to chill out until computer guy comes to upgrade my ex’s system to apple. Tomorrow Ill check for your tips!
Thanks for being there, you folk are THE BEST!