I hear you, Blueberrybook! I often feel lazy as well! Unlike you however I'm not that busy so there are really NO EXCUSES for my behavior. I'm REALLY HAPPY that you're aware that taking care of yourself is NOT a negative thing at all. I don't have a lot of advice except to keep repeating that to yourself. I'm sure you're a WONDERFUL mother and wife and from what you wrote it seems like even in what is supposedly a day of relaxation you were STILL very busy! Try not to feel guilty about this. You're doing the best you can Take GREAT care of yourself, ok? .throb: You're a WONDERFUL person and you deserve to treat yourself well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you and your family, Blueberrybook!