feeling very down tonight, i hope tomorrow is better. Weird though, my day was ok, i was glad to see my older son, younger has prospects for a place of his own.. bought a beautiful bouquet of flowers from a mennonite stand for 6 bucks... peonies and sweet williams. They make the most beautiful flower arrangements.

Saw my doc, things are ok, my blood pressure is better since I finally quit smoking. Maybe that's causing me some depression, I really miss that cig with my coffee.
My bf is treating me like I don't exist most of the time. People suck, they aren't there and don't see that you need help when you're feeling down. Just want a bit of affection and attention from him, if he loves me he'd understand wouldn't he?