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Originally Posted by bizi
Met with my sponsor...she basically gave me a choice to either buy the big book and start reading it or find a new sponsor.
I don't want to read the big book.She figured out how controlling I am. She said you have to find some higher power to work the steps.
After I left I was angry. I like her so don't want to lose her but can't do the big book. I am an atheist.
bizi
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Congrats on not drinking to soothe a negative emotion!! I don't think AA is the only way to stop drinking. I think all of AA's "higher power" stuff could also be about accepting things that we can't control.
I don't consider myself an atheist but, sometimes I do doubt if there is a God and because of this--I empathize, understand and feel like people have a right to not believe. I even believe that an atheist might be more "honest" than some believers but also think it is a type of black and white thinking to be sure about the existence of God. I mean faith is about believing in things unseen. Hope I am not being too preachy--it is just that it seems so judgemental in a bad way to say you must believe. That is not good spirituality or morals from my POV. I can see why you felt angry!
Anyways--you can do this--you don't need AA if they aren't accepting of what you are and believe.
