I'm so sorry to hear that. Addiction isn't easy, but do not give up on your sobriety journey. There are many different resources out to help you. Have you thought about a rehab center? I know people who have used thefix.com and rehabreviews.com to find a treatment center, and have now been sober for years. It definitely helps to have someone guide you through the process.

I wish you the best and a smooth recovery. Best of luck.