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I don't have much advice, but I'm sorry the situation right now seems so bleak.

I hope your pdoc appt goes well, and that you talk about the many different options out there. You may also want to mention your husband's point of view on things, just so your pdoc is aware and might be able to help.

Perhaps you can get your husband (and maybe yourself) into a counselling session together to talk things out?

Be safe. Hope all goes well tomorrow, let us know how it goes.