oh...that. yea. i see what you mean now. that would be kinda difficult if you had to deal with that all the time.
i've not been abused by any family, but i've been abused unconsciously by others (including my brother) mentally. does that count? and the whole life and death thing...heheh. i think about that frequently, but i never had the guts to actually try it. i still don't.

and is it normal for my emotions to not be real? it's like i know im not feeling anything, but when im writing or talking, my mind is saying it with emotion, even though i know it's not there.