I'm so sorry you're going through ALL of this, golden_eve! Victim blaming sure is AWFUL and I'm so sorry you've had to experience it! You did good by standing up for yourself with your colleague. Hopefully she'll understand and behave better next time. Sometimes we just need to make our voice heard. Hang in there. You will get through this. I know you will. You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! You KNOW that! Keep working on yourself and keep trying your best. Things CAN and WILL get better at some point. I hope you have someone supporting you IRL. If you don't, we'll gladly support you here on PC. You're very much loved here. THAT'S A PROMISE! Feel free to PM me anytime if you want to. My inbox is always open for you. Keep fighting and keep trying your best. Please hang in there. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, golden_eve!