I feel like no matter how hard I work I'm getting absolutely no where. Still the same old position with the same old ********, I just don't understand anymore, where have I gone wrong? Somewhere I convinced myself that I was doing the right things for my children and I...it ends up being wrong.

I'm so desperate for some wholesome support right now that I'd walk into a church, or even call my Dad..the minister. Everyone around me is very critical despite my efforts.

I've worked myself to the bone here...everyday, all day. For the first three days of the week I go to work at 9 am and leave for my last class at 10 pm....straight to work, to class, finally home. Half of my week is this way. Then in the middle is a 12 hour shift at work to catch up on hours....then 8 half's with a day off here and there, never together. I can't even eat or sleep anymore....My bodies so desperate for sleep that I get nervous to drive now. I've lost a lot of weight a little over a month because I'm unable to eat at home and can't afford to eat out.



My endless *****fest....I'm aware of this, I know...it's old.