I fear horrible disasters. In fact, the thoughts and imagery come so regularly that they do so more often than the memories of the PTSD related ones do. Everyday sometimes multiple times a day they weigh me down sometimes causing me to weep and always gripping me with fear. That fear may be momentary. That fear may last throughout the day. Always, they are accompanied with visions of the aftermath - usually images of the ones I love in hospital rooms. Ugh.

I cannot hear the sound of sirens without the triggered thought that my boyfriend has been in an accident. The anxiety worsens exponentially when he is out on his motorcycle. I have visions of him being in an accident at work. When I lived in the same city as my son, the same would happen. The phone rings and my first thought is that someone has been killed or maimed. When I am aware my adult children are on a road trip I fear them getting in an accident and worry and have visions and wait for the phone to ring right up until they advise me they reached their destination safely. My stepmom paddle boards and I thus have visions and worries involving her too. Anytime I know someone who is travelling and flying the same thing happens and so on and so on.

I don't think this has anything to do with bipolar. It is not related to my PTSD (that is sourced in an entirely different manner). So why does this happen? Am I alone in this? Does it occupy as much of others' lives as it does my own?

I'd appreciate your thoughts on this.

Thx