I know, it's a f'ed up thing to say.

I resent her.

I always have.

When we were kids everybody loved her more then me.

She's much prettier then me.

Has always had many friends, with not the slightest bit of effort.

I especially felt immense anger towards her when Mom left me in Indiana as a ward of the state and took my sister with her... to keep CPS from taking her away. Mom just let me go into the fire, like scarifying one child for another...for the better child.

Now, she was offered the greatest opportunity at happiness, to money, to a marriage with a wonderful military man. She had everything and never onced picked up a finger to work for it. Her son had more then I ever fathomed my children would have.

She was ungrateful and blew it all away like it was nothing....I would have done anything to have gotten what she had.



I just don't understand anything anymore.