I hear you, Ladylullaby! It isn't easy AT ALL! PLEASE HANG IN THERE AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! I'm glad you like your therapist at least. Perhaps you may want to discuss these issues you're having right now with her? Just a thought! Either way, please hang in there. It WILL get easier at some point. I PROMISE YOU THAT! We're here for you if you need support. Do you have a support system IRL? i certainly hope so! Please stay safe and take GREAT care of yourself! YOU ARE IMPORTANT AND YOU MATTER! I'M SURE YOU KNOW THAT AS WELL! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you and ALL the people you love and who love you, Ladylullaby!