I know TunedOut, but alcohol helps so much. actually though, i've bought new old meds (with prescription from my GP) that works with the same receptors of alcohol and thats why when i get them i feel kind of drank but in a much better way. just head lighter and relaxed. im using them everyday at work again. (i had stopped because i didnt want to get addicted to them, but they work SO well).

Today was hard too but a little bit better than yesterday. at work at least. with P, we mentioned having an icecfeam or pizza together soon. im not sure should i wait for him to invite me or should it start from me again??? id like to go tomorrow (since my friend is starting her new job) but he asked me about saturday, so i dont know… we'll see tomorrow i guess.

i had lunch at my parents and then went at the MHC. i have waited for my pdoc for our last session for 45 mins. i was leaving when she came in. i gave her the plant and the letter which she opened and red and i can bet she was moved by something i have written to her. we hugged. i think my words did well to her. and she DID fix the meds issue and will probably fix the other issue which is going to take the meds every 3 days instead of every other day. that would be so much better. its so stressing to go there wait the line just to get a few meds and then having to go back to my flat…

the rest of the day went ok at work with the pills help. tonight im cooking and eating stuff before they go rotten. i updated eveything i had to update on my laptop and finally tomorrow is last working day for this week. i didnt think i would have made it.

Thank you ALL for your support.