They did not prevent me from changing; they demanded I change under penalty of grievous injury or death. And nothing I did was good enough - they kept moving the goalposts; they did not act in good faith. Their strategy was to exhaust my resources in order to finish me off; they never had any intention of accepting me or acknowledging my achievements.

I have already seen multiple therapists. I have been diagnosed with treatment-resistant Complex PTSD; I have been injured too badly to ever be healed.

Then, if I weren't already dying, then my death would be again guaranteed. Their beliefs will eventually force them to kill me. They cannot accept me without having an identity crisis in the process - they define themselves by how much better they are from me.