I hate my appearance, but I think a lot of the other things I hate are more to do with, well, life.

life certainly didn't turn out the way I expected (when I was 9 I hardly thought I was going to be a woman with no qualifications) and I guess I can't blame myself for all my diagnoses (though it is tempting at times)

I just hate what I've become, and the little I have to show for it