Thank you for the warmness and understanding! I have never told a soul. Ever. Until here. And I know I'm as anonymous on here as all of you! Well, I hope so anyway. It was even scary to type on a public forum. My "T" has never given me any reason to think she wouldn't be more than supportive, it's just me. Maybe just coming here and saying it will help me open up to her eventually. Unfortunately, she's on vacation for the next couple of weeks, so maybe it will give me time to think about it. I've found a couple of books on this subject and am working on reading them. I don't know why I care what she would think, I really can't figure it out. But I know once I tell her, I can't untell her. I'm not attracted to her in the least, so that's not it. They advertise as "friendly" with issues like this, but I suppose it's just admitting it for the very first time. I don't know. I really appreciate your replies!