There are many things I have apparently not made clear enough.

First, the people I describe are basically all people. These aren't just a local handful; the vast majority of interactions I have with the human race are this abusive. So, for instance, I cannot "get out" because these people exist worldwide - there's nowhere to go to where there aren't more of them. All human beings will always be imminently dangerous to me, simply because of human nature. Human beings have an innate fear - and subsequent need to conquer and dominate - what they don't understand. After experiencing my entire life from birth in social isolation, I am completely incomprehensible to others who don't have specific training in social or psychological sciences. Even you are misunderstanding me - and you're a social psychologist.

Second, as a male, I doubt I'd be welcome in a women's shelter - in fact, I will likely be blamed for everything those women suffer.

Third, there are two reasons I say I will be dying soon. The first is that after a life-long overexposure to cortisol, my oragns are going to give out on me soon. My doctors gave me what is now only about half a year before a "cascade" happens and my systems all collapse under each other's failing stress. The second is that I'm reaching the ends of te statistical odds of me being murdered by the peopel who want me dead. I'm only alive now because people don't want to get their hands dirty killing me, but it seems society is getting bad enough that people wil start getting over that - either that or people will simply get sick of me living after forty years of my continued existence "mocking" them.