Hi Cantx, hi riptide,
by the way, I love that name, riptide so apt! riptide, theres a group of Ts in the US who SPECIALISE in disorders, specially borderline, theyve worked out a way of treating them, they have special theory adapted. I can give you names etc if you like.

cantx,
what you say, some of what you say makes me think, ....... would this be right?.............
you talk about cutting, but with a sort of great detachment, it is a fairly extreme expression of some emotion, but you do it without emotion,........then also ummm... you're quite independent,....
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......... and your parents are caring, but maybe a bit stiffling, ... maybe intrusive?

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i forgot to mention-my outlook on life is that it's a dirty and cruel place that deserves to die.

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god, thats beautifull put, I have had those kinda feelings........it does sound like one of the disorders,,,,,somewhere along the spectrum. I have one too, and I was also fascinated, and still am about them. I am in recovery, and NEVER believe you cant recover, course you can, it takes work and a lot of willingness, if iehter of you'd like, I'll post contact info for the organisation that deals with pd.s and they all say yes, you can recover.

all the best,
riverx