Dear T,
I wish I hadn't sent that email. I want to send another that's just like "Never mind, you don't have to reply, sorry. I'll be fine." And I wish I knew what your actual travel schedule was--not like exactly where you're going (though I'd like to know that, too), like when you'll actually be in the potentially WiFi-free place. Because maybe you're there already and don't have WiFi. Or maybe you're not traveling till tonight or tomorrow. But since you wouldn't even confirm you were traveling at all, obviously, you wouldn't have told me that. Though, like I said, what, are you just maybe gonna turn off the WiFi in your house for 10 days?

I just feel like I should have discussed some things about your traveling more in session yesterday, like how to hold onto the attachment. Because it already feels gone, maybe because I didn't feel it yesterday like I usually do? I think I was trying to keep my distance emotionally, though I let some stuff out in the end. I think I was thrown off by your asking early on if I had an agenda for the session. As in your email reply earlier in the week, you'd said we should start with the vacation stuff. And yeah, you asked me about why I'm worried about you dying while traveling more so then than at other times and we discussed that a little. And we joked a bit about things related to your travel. But you seemed more sensitive and caring in the email than in session--maybe your brain was already in vacation mode? I should have seen you Thursday instead of yesterday... And then to say "Enjoy" at the end? I know it's one of your things to say, but I told you before that it bothers me when you say that if it's been a tough session. I wish you'd have spent a minute or two reassuring me at the end, or even just 30 seconds over the handshake. At least you said "take care." And I thought you were going to say something else to me as I was leaving, but you were just asking if I had my water bottle...It's going to be a long 10...well, I guess 9 days now. Glad I'm seeing R on Tuesday instead of Thursday.

Love,
LT