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Originally Posted by Thirty shades
 Buffy01
I understand how you are feeling. I am having a prolonged spell of feeling this way. I am under a lot of stress and I don't see it being over for at least a few months. I find it hard to pick myself up and catch myself from falling when I am being triggered so much. I have no energy left. And now I have panic rising up in me so many times a day.
It all is trashing my self esteem. I feel really useless and my memories of emotional meltdowns leave me with large doses of toxic shame.
Much respect to you and everyone who is suffering  |
I don’t feel shame about my emotional meltdowns. I feel anger about how those ‘loved ones’ who triggered it feel no empathy toward me for it— they even feel resentment toward me for it and I feel they don’t like me for it— shame on THEM!