I also have wanted revenge for the longest time. Last year I wrote him a "goodbye" letter, confronting him on all the crap he pulled and on how rotten he was towards me, then I told him I was engaged and getting married in five months. I wanted REVENGE and I wanted him to HURT over that.

Maybe I just need to let go in knowing I gave myself, all of my heart and love to someone who crapped all over it and who crapped all over me. Maybe I just need to say "screw it, he just never deserved me". Which is what I wrote in my goodbye letter.

I hate to say it but I hope it did effect him.