Hi cucunots. Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry you are feeling the stress of financial pressure and the challenges of coping with your diagnosed condition.

I am sorry you are struggling sometimes with suicidal thoughts. Have you considered working with a support group or therapist?

Here are some resources on Psych Central that may be of interest

How I Cope with Suicidal Ideation

How Suicidal Thoughts Can Become a Coping Mechanism

How to Survive Suicidal Thoughts

Tips for coping with suicidal thoughts.

If you need more support for feeling actively suicidal than our community can provide, we maintain a list of online and community-based suicide resources. We keep all of our resources in indexed lists that are regularly reviewed and updated under the "Resources" main menu item (under our logo there). Scroll down and you'll see a category called "Suicide and Crises."

Get crisis help online right now via chat:

CrisisChat - Home

On your smartphone:

http://www.crisistextline.org/

Or through a telephone call:

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.suicide.org/
http://www.hopeline.com/
http://www.suicideforum.com/